Social Fog

I realized something last week. (amazing I know)
We, as women (maybe not you, but several that I have talked to) , tend to feel as though we are on the outside looking in at everyone.
I thought I was so alone in that feeling, with everyone else having these friends so close, and millions of things in common, and very full social schedules with all their friends pining for their every second....Talking with some girls, whom I thought fit these descriptions, I realized that this is not the case. We are in fact, a lonely generation after all!
I have been in hiding, a strange place for an outspoken itallian-ish girl. It has felt uneasy, like a fog. The less I put my self out there socially, the less I felt like trying. I don't even know that girl who greeted everyone when we first moved as a church. I have had to really claw spiritually and emotionally to get out of that fog. Things are still a little hazy, but a lot clearer in the sense that I will continue to reach for people like I have and maybe it will feel natural again, like it used to. It's interesting though, does it happen when we grow up and realize that we can't be everyone's friend, or something happens and we stop trying, or should we chalk it up to "social anxiety" and allow it to enfold us? The last seems the only clear no. Otherwise I have no answer but to fight it because it doesn't feel good. We should all reach out a little, I know that I appreciate those who did to me.